Over the past few months, I’ve been thinking about a lot of things. Expectations, joy, vulnerability—if you name something, I’ve probably also thought about that too. And if I’m really honest with myself, for the past year it has been hard to share about my life. No, it’s not because I’ve been having a difficultContinue reading “Garden of Wonder”
Category Archives: reflections
Behind the Smile
The first three months of this year have passed, but the season ahead still seems dry and barren. I won’t pretend that this year has been a good one. Even among the Hokkaido snow of the new year, I battled exhaustion and this mixed feeling of loneliness and trepidation that I could not explain. ItContinue reading “Behind the Smile”
Unseen, Unheard
There once was a doll who lived in a toy store display. Many walked by and admired her beauty and sweet smile, but eventually, everyone left. That is until one day, a girl stopped and stayed. She smiled at the doll, looking beyond the smile and seeing the passion hidden behind her lonely eyes. TheContinue reading “Unseen, Unheard”
Growing Old
In a cosy corner of a Thai restaurant, we were seated at a booth in the back during a lunch date a little later than when people usually eat. Between our conversations about the food, there were talks about memories of friendship and war, talks of work and leisure, and of growing old. I wasContinue reading “Growing Old”
Winter Coat
I always find it interesting how people view me. Most of the time, I hear that people have found me scary and intimidating. Other descriptions include: interesting, thoughtful, insane, and “has no chill”. This reminded me of a conversation I had a while ago. I sighed and told my friend that I’m a little insecureContinue reading “Winter Coat”
Cereal Mix
If the past two weeks of my life were a bowl of cereal, It would be as if a toddler had grabbed All the different types of cereal from the pantry And added every single one to his bowl; And he would clumsily spill a little Onto the countertop each time he went back forContinue reading “Cereal Mix”
I Can’t Complain
Yesterday, I was unhappy About the girl I saw in the mirror, But ignored the physical flaws In favour of an extraordinary day Overflowing with joyous celebration. I was anxious having to wait For a car that never came, And needing to find A new way to the room Of happy eyes and masked smiles.Continue reading “I Can’t Complain”
A Foreign Language
To be sitting in a classroom, where I understood maybe one in every twenty words spoken, where all but one other understands the language – it was an unequivocal feeling. The strange familiarity of mentally losing it as time went on takes me back to the days I travelled across the world, finding myself somewhereContinue reading “A Foreign Language”
Autopilot
Yesterday was a strange day. It was full of many things to do, many people to see and many conversations to tend to. And people who know me would probably ask: what makes it different from any other day you live? I remember listening to a conversation about living life as if you were onContinue reading “Autopilot”
Look Up At The Stars
Look up at the stars They’re like pieces of art Floating above the ground The air was cool and the night was dark, at least, away from where we found ourselves; away from the blinding lights of the gazebo decorated with warm fairy lights. Waiting for the last of us to arrive, we mused atContinue reading “Look Up At The Stars”
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