It was just a regular Thursday night, and the first time I’d ever told you that I needed you. I found myself ashamed that I couldn’t hold it together, crying to you over the phone. I remember you. As emotions ran high, when the shock and frustration kicked in, my first thought was to figureContinue reading “I Remember You”
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I Still Found Ways To Love You
My mind seems to have found an odd neural pathway I thought was long gone. Destroyed out of self-preservation and unwillingness to put myself in similar situations as I once was. A state of overwhelm after being subjected to an onslaught of information, with little time to process it. It’s a constant battle to outpaceContinue reading “I Still Found Ways To Love You”
Men Loving Women Is My Favourite Trope
Romance novels are bestsellers for a reason. They offer an escape, an immersion into lives far removed from our own. There are so many tropes found in romance novels that it’s hard to keep track. From childhood sweethearts, and golden retriever boy and black cat girl, to fake relationships, and enemies to lovers, there isContinue reading “Men Loving Women Is My Favourite Trope”
(Not) sorry, I don’t date cowards
Sometimes I struggle to offer gentle words When bitter repeat offences occur, But then I recall Jesus also flipped tables In the temples, causing quite a stir. We turn the other cheek in the face of adversity, It’s loving rebuke we’re never taught well, You avoided what was necessary for repair, Blaming me for makingContinue reading “(Not) sorry, I don’t date cowards”
I Lied To Your Mum
I didn’t mean to lie to your mum. The words had come out without much thought going into them. I wanted the words to be true. And maybe for a time, they were. But not when they had left my mouth. As the words escaped, something in my head clicked. It was an immediate responseContinue reading “I Lied To Your Mum”
I Thought I Was Crazy
This morning, memories of a bygone era popped up on my phone: a notification from Daylio. It read: New Memories 1 year ago A year. Only a year, yet it yawns like a chasm between then and now. The photo, him. A little ways off in the distance, walking down the track. We had goneContinue reading “I Thought I Was Crazy”
Are you happy with Carlotta?
I thought I was over being angry, and bitter, and vengeful. But something happened on a Monday night recently, painfully reminding me of a slight against my person. It brought me back to that dangerous thought loop of cognitive incongruence—the agonising uncertainty of whether the betrayals I encountered were real or imagined. I thought IContinue reading “Are you happy with Carlotta?”
Did I Ever Mean Anything to You
Yesterday, two people I love got married. She was a girl I met just after I finished high school, and he was someone I met during my first year of university. I met each of them in different places for different reasons, so it was odd to hear that they had connected many years later.Continue reading “Did I Ever Mean Anything to You”
First
It’s a little strange reflecting on firsts, When thinking about lost seconds, With the boy that came before the third. My mind goes through the broken promises; The unrealised dreams, big and small; And the small lies that turned into great whites. I wish I could say the secrets weren’t a first—That they didn’t turnContinue reading “First”
Words I Didn’t Want To Hear
I was emotionally attached to her. Those were the words I didn’t want to hear. If I had known an admission like that was coming, would I have blocked my ears? Tears welled up in my eyes and streaked down my face hearing those words. I was justifiably angry and deeply grieved. I went intoContinue reading “Words I Didn’t Want To Hear”
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