lament – 水

A Sick Woman’s Lament

I AM BEDRIDDEN AND UPSET AND LAMENTING I COULDN’T LAST THE FINAL 13 DAYS OF THIS YEAR WITHOUT FALLING ILL BECAUSE I WAS SO CLOSE TO THIS UTTERLY MEANINGLESS STREAK OF HEALTH SO I MUST SETTLE ON SAYING I HAVE BEEN THE PICTURE OF HEALTH FOR A MERE 352 DAYS AND NOT A YEAR.

Last Laugh

Is it a normal response to wish ill will on the people who have wronged you? I used to think that immoral satisfaction in seeing people struggle was normal. After making jests at my expense or choosing to not heed my warning, it was indeed the irony that made such situations humorous. And in myContinue reading “Last Laugh”

Will

Is it normal to keep conceding your dreams for the sake of the greater good? Is this what God meant when telling us to die to ourselves? When the outcomes of my sacrifices involve so much grief and frustration, it leads me to question whether I’ve been living the right way. And drawing the lineContinue reading “Will”

Buck Full Moon

As I’m sat here in my flimsy foldable chair, Modestly under-dressed for a mildly chilly night, The moon clearly gleams and beams in the sky. Half of July has gone by, and yet, I am still thinking about last December; I witnessed the Geminids under a different full moon, And in a bout of personalContinue reading “Buck Full Moon”

Gentle and Lowly

Strong. Why does everyone want to be strong? Only those who want to be strong don’t know the pain of having no choice but to be strong. Or perhaps they were tired of being weak. My friends tell me that I’m strong—the silent and reliable type who always knows what to do when things goContinue reading “Gentle and Lowly”

Okay

Four weeks Four weeks ago, if you asked me how I felt, I could not provide an answer. I received an onslaught of messages, each time reminding me that I was not okay. And there were tears every time I opened my phone. Among the rage and the apathy, I was overcome by an unconscionableContinue reading “Okay”

Happier

Lately, I’ve been thinking about something that seems to have been eating away at me for a while. It’s this feeling of being too much. My friends tell me, You’re not high maintenance. And I see it in their eyes that they mean it. Why was I so convinced otherwise? Well, it’s simple really. YouContinue reading “Happier”