Mr brothers and sisters in Christ, Where do you go when you’re not feeling like yourself? Like you’re operating on your bad habits because the regular servers in your head aren’t working, or even past that, when everything in you ceases to work. Do you run back to the Father with all your unfavourable emotionsContinue reading “A Letter From the Desert”
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The space between dreams and nightmares
I have a lot of nightmares. They come and go as they please, only serving to bring me suffering in my wake. But it’s not like killer clowns chase after me in nightmares of animated horrors. No, my dreams are never like Stephen King novels. Rather, they resemble the real world a little too closelyContinue reading “The space between dreams and nightmares”
Unreliable
When people let you down in a lengthy string of offences, it’s difficult to rely on them when you need help. In the past few months, I’ve been spread out so thinly—a consequence of distractions and misplaced priorities, no doubt. There were weeks of bodily stress manifesting in an onslaught of ulcers in my mouth,Continue reading “Unreliable”
I Need Help
Something has me in a chokehold. It has occupied my brain and taken over like a parasitic worm, and it’s all I can think about—or perhaps, it’s more accurate to say it’s all I want to think about right now. After all, it feels like a shiny and new beam of hope that seemingly cameContinue reading “I Need Help”
Palliative Care
We showed up for her. It’s what family does. My auntie, having had all the responsibility put on her shoulders by her no-good older brothers, was rather alone in it all. Caring for her dying father. I couldn’t imagine how that would feel, needing to be there for someone you love while being forced toContinue reading “Palliative Care”
Designed to Play Around and Make Excuses
Some time ago, I slowly settled back into the irregular, yet familiar, rhythms of my ordinary life. Returning from a highly chaotic family holiday filled with strange twists and turns, this small moment of normalcy, if you can even call it that, has been a deeply valued gift. On second thought, no… “normal” isn’t quiteContinue reading “Designed to Play Around and Make Excuses”
I Still Found Ways To Love You
My mind seems to have found an odd neural pathway I thought was long gone. Destroyed out of self-preservation and unwillingness to put myself in similar situations as I once was. A state of overwhelm after being subjected to an onslaught of information, with little time to process it. It’s a constant battle to outpaceContinue reading “I Still Found Ways To Love You”
(Not) sorry, I don’t date cowards
Sometimes I struggle to offer gentle words When bitter repeat offences occur, But then I recall Jesus also flipped tables In the temples, causing quite a stir. We turn the other cheek in the face of adversity, It’s loving rebuke we’re never taught well, You avoided what was necessary for repair, Blaming me for makingContinue reading “(Not) sorry, I don’t date cowards”
Funny Fever Dreams and 1AM Night Skies
It’s not every day you get to turn funny fever-dream-filled conversations into little joyrides down to the waterside. I’m not even sure what came over me in the moments leading up to the absurd exchanges of lame wit and nonsensical trains of thought. Methinks I was trying really hard to avoid a low that hadContinue reading “Funny Fever Dreams and 1AM Night Skies”
Stray Thoughts and Broken Dreams
As I searched through the mountain of untouched memos in my phone for writing inspiration, I came across a note from a very long time ago. It was titled, ‘Feelings to sort through later’. And I am sad to be reminded about how long I suffered. I suppose it is the birthright of people likeContinue reading “Stray Thoughts and Broken Dreams”
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