This morning, I unwittingly stumbled across an old memoir of mine. It was somewhat of an absurd attachment, yet it still held considerable significance in my eyes. Looking at it stirred a range of feelings within me. I remember the warmth, the tongue-in-cheek humour, and the thoughtfulness this milk carton once conveyed. You heard right.Continue reading “A Milk Carton Is All It Is”
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I Thought I Was Crazy
This morning, memories of a bygone era popped up on my phone: a notification from Daylio. It read: New Memories 1 year ago A year. Only a year, yet it yawns like a chasm between then and now. The photo, him. A little ways off in the distance, walking down the track. We had goneContinue reading “I Thought I Was Crazy”
The Unloved Woman
I’ve lived a life of insignificance for quite some time now. All my efforts have amounted to very little in my career, relationships, and many other areas of my life. I’ve dealt with so much disappointment and heartache, often ending with me wondering whether I’m doing the right things. Every door I’ve reached for hasContinue reading “The Unloved Woman”
Autumn is for the lovers and dreamers
Yesterday’s date used to mean something to me. But now, it’s just another day in April that my phone has reminded me about. I spent the majority of it on my own with small things I did to distract myself from past disappointments. I thought I was diligent enough to get rid of such reminders,Continue reading “Autumn is for the lovers and dreamers”
Feats and Defeats, Distractions and Delights
It has been quite the feat to scale the tall walls of my waking. Each time I suffer a relapse into unwanted memoirs of misery, my breath shortens its cadence, and my heartbeat runs afar. In my distress, I send desperate prayers to God, begging Him to relieve me of this cup. But the reliefContinue reading “Feats and Defeats, Distractions and Delights”
It’s Well-Worn but Worn Out
I thought I’d be wearing that sweater until its seams gave out and the material wasted away. Instead, I threw it back in the face of the one who had nonchalantly gifted it to me in the first place. I’ve been feeling a little worse for wear lately. Though, I suppose that it’s nothing newContinue reading “It’s Well-Worn but Worn Out”
Lover Girl
We’ve travelled another year around the sun, and now we’re here. It’s Valentine’s Day. Just another day of bittersweet feelings. Seeing love and loving that love for others, but painfully remembering that you don’t have it. Funnily enough, you had someone to share life with last year, yet today is the second Valentine’s Day inContinue reading “Lover Girl”
Words I Didn’t Want To Hear
I was emotionally attached to her. Those were the words I didn’t want to hear. If I had known an admission like that was coming, would I have blocked my ears? Tears welled up in my eyes and streaked down my face hearing those words. I was justifiably angry and deeply grieved. I went intoContinue reading “Words I Didn’t Want To Hear”
2024
I regret a lot of my 2024. I spent so long begging to be loved—begging for a sliver of people’s time and presence. I’ve stayed in relationships with people who, frankly, make me feel less than. And I am ashamed it took me so long to recognise that I allowed it to happen over andContinue reading “2024”
Busy Mind, Busy Soul
As the year is drawing to a close, and festivities have taken over in a workshop cog work-type fashion, it has been difficult to catch my breath. Strenuous feats of physical, mental and emotional activities have left me exhausted at the end of most days. Don’t get me wrong, they have been rewarding experiences, butContinue reading “Busy Mind, Busy Soul”
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