I regret a lot of my 2024. I spent so long begging to be loved—begging for a sliver of people’s time and presence. I’ve stayed in relationships with people who, frankly, make me feel less than. And I am ashamed it took me so long to recognise that I allowed it to happen over andContinue reading “2024”
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Busy Mind, Busy Soul
As the year is drawing to a close, and festivities have taken over in a workshop cog work-type fashion, it has been difficult to catch my breath. Strenuous feats of physical, mental and emotional activities have left me exhausted at the end of most days. Don’t get me wrong, they have been rewarding experiences, butContinue reading “Busy Mind, Busy Soul”
Different Kind of Hurt
My friends joke I have too many hobbies, Small loves of chasing after umami delights, The high of scaling new heights, The tactile feel of poker chips and gambling thrills, The rush of frosty winds on snowy hills, The immersion into creative stories, Open-world games filling my inventories, Endless fascination with God’s vibrant landscapes, AndContinue reading “Different Kind of Hurt”
Satisfied
Act I Look around, look around, Would it be enough to know That you are alive right now? Please look around, look around At how lucky we are, it’s true, To be alive right now. Is it enough, or do we yearn For more than we have earned In a ceaseless, endless chase? Are youContinue reading “Satisfied”
Gentle and Lowly
Strong. Why does everyone want to be strong? Only those who want to be strong don’t know the pain of having no choice but to be strong. Or perhaps they were tired of being weak. My friends tell me that I’m strong—the silent and reliable type who always knows what to do when things goContinue reading “Gentle and Lowly”
Okay
Four weeks Four weeks ago, if you asked me how I felt, I could not provide an answer. I received an onslaught of messages, each time reminding me that I was not okay. And there were tears every time I opened my phone. Among the rage and the apathy, I was overcome by an unconscionableContinue reading “Okay”
Words Left Unspoken
How many days of radio silence would it take before your mind starts to stir? If they’re your person, I think it’s safe to expect a small message at least once during the day. A good morning, goodnight, or this made me think of you is reasonable to expect when in a relationship, right? WithContinue reading “Words Left Unspoken”
Walk in Love
I was blessed to have joined a new bible study group this year. The leaders have really emphasised this group as a church—a place where we do life together and bear each other’s burdens while sharing the joys. And even more so because they welcomed us into their home. Every week, we share a mealContinue reading “Walk in Love”
Ugly Duckling
Do you know what it’s like to grow up in a place where no one is like you? To purposefully be made to feel out of place because of the way you look? Primary school was like being an ugly duckling raised in a flock of ordinary ducklings, and we all know how that storyContinue reading “Ugly Duckling”
Calendars
Calendars are fantastic when you know how to use them. I thrive on keeping my calendar updated because it’s incredibly satisfying to know everything is organised. Before everyone’s lives were uprooted and we were plunged into lockdown, my planners kept me going. I had all events and appointments marked, accurate to the quarter hour. AndContinue reading “Calendars”
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